I'm recording every moment with you in details
Enjoy the rest of time that i have with you
Record it in my mind, and hopefully can play this when you're not by my side

This moment is very meaningful, thank you yach ..

It's only a matter of time, when everything will be gone ..
Forever.. and only me left. Just me and my self..

About a few years ago, there is a film that have title 'Sweet November' , romantic film starring Keanu Reeves and Charlize Theron,the story is about the best November that they through together but it has sad ending. Anyway, my post is not about that film, I just wanna give a little background about the title of my post this time.

I called this November is the worst month in this year or maybe in the last 24 years. One by one ordeal came to my life, from the beginning of the month till that day, started from my self, my love.. my dreams has been broken ... This heart is broken too, just wondering what I have done before, what mistake that I've done in this life or in another life if another life is exists, I mean a big mistake that can't be apologized not just a mistake, because there's always a mistake since I just only a human. Just wondering why it happens to me,if I have a mistake that can't be apologized, all I can say is pardon me.

And then my father is hospitalized, this one makes me totally down. When I tried to cure my self from the recently problem, another problem has come. All I can do just cry, this pained is too much, sometimes I want to give up, wish that today is my last day in this complicated world, so I don't need to feel this pain. But I should be stronger, for my father, my mom, my bro, my sis.

That's why I called this is not my "Sweet November", even November doesn't reach a half yet. All the problems have made me insane. Hopefully I can through this. Stand up in my own leg and God as my savior.

Lelahmu jadi lelahku juga
Bahagiamu bahagiaku juga
Berbagi takdir kita selalu
Kecuali tiap kau jatuh hati

Kali ini hampir habis dayaku
Membuktikan padamu ada cinta yang nyata
Setia hadir setiap hari
Tak tega biarkan kau sendiri
Meski seringkali kau malah asyik sendiri

Karena kau tak lihat terkadang malaikat
Tak bersayap tak cemerlang tak rupawan
Namun kasih ini silakan kau adu
Malaikat juga tahu siapa yang jadi juaranya

Hampamu tak kan hilang semalam
Oleh pacar impian
Tetapi kesempatan, untukku yang mungkin tak sempurna
Tapi siap untuk diuji
Kupercaya diri
Cintakulah yang sejati

Namun tak kau lihat terkadang malaikat
Tak bersayap tak cemerlang tak rupawan
Namun kasih ini silakan kau adu
Malaikat juga tahu siapa yang jadi juaranya

Kau selalu meminta terus kutemani
Dan kau selalu bercanda andai wajahku diganti
Relakan ku pergi
Karna tak sanggup sendiri

Namun tak kau lihat terkadang malaikat
Tak bersayap tak cemerlang tak rupawan
Namun kasih ini silakan kau adu
Malaikat juga tahu Aku kan jadi juaranya


- Song by Dee, Dewi Lestari